There is this Psalm, 42:7 to be exact, that says, "Deep calls to deep at the roar of your waterfalls..." As a dancer and artist, I have spent much of my life pursuing the call of deep to deep. I have felt the thrill as I have come into contact and friendships with people who's "deep" have resonated with my deep.
I'm not sure if I was hollowed out in my youth by cherishing my own mother's depth, or if I cherished her depth because it mirrored what i felt in my own soul. Either way, from a young age I would dance with passion and deep feeling to the mournful gushing of Fur Elise played by my Daddy, swelling with its hopes and groveling with its disappointments. I always thought that this understanding, this resonating, this accepting was what that phrase meant, "deep calls out to deep." Like the deep in me calling out to the deep in you.
It came up in Bible study a couple weeks ago. That our deepest cries, be it of hurt or sorrow, anger or confusion, could be answered by the depth of God. And for whatever reason this was rolling around in my head the other day as I prepared in the morning (doesn't every moms' best thoughts happen in the bathroom?). "Deep cries out to deep," and a whisper followed it, Isaiah 11:9 "for the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the LORD as the waters cover the sea". The overlapping of these two word pictures nearly brought me to my knees as I realized that the next phrase of Psalm 42:7 actually says, "all your breakers and your waves have gone over me". It was right there all along! The deep had always meant not to resonate, but to be filled! He hollows out that He might fill! Oh! How could I not have seen? Our destiny is not to be a canyon calling out to the Deepest of Canyons, but as the waters cover the deep, as a bride is filled with her husband, as the nature of liquids and gasses are to defuse and spread... all holes are made to be filled. There is not a wound that has ever been allowed without the hope and promise that God himself would fill that hole for those found in Him.
I see it again on the sermon on the mount, "blessed are those who hunger, for they will be filled," and "blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted". I had always been blinded by what it meant to comfort and filled in this world, but since when did Jesus ever talk about things with a focus to this world's systems? It's a far greater promise made here and I almost can't believe it.
As I am seeing more clearly every day that we live in such a broken, fallen, crying out in the pains of child birth world. But AH! what a hope we have. Not that "it will all work out alright", or "what will be will be" or even "it is what it is". Unbelievable thought, we are being preparedto be filled. Let those breakers and waves crash over you even today. What a great and gracious God we serve!
