hide to be found

Swallow it down, swallow it down
or it will take you down as it spills.
Those little eyes are watching you
needing your heart to be still.


i can remember cutting the skin
matching the pain
shoving it back down within
hoping that nobody else would see
notice the broken, torn parts that made me;
aching for someone to see underneath
and rescue my heart from the mouth of the beast.


It's funny this hiding that screams to be found
and lonely this anger that pushes you out.
I want you to leave so you won't see the truth
that I need you to be here,
see down deep,
and rescue.

But what if you notice
and still you don't care?
What if you leave me alone in despair?

So I stand here at odds
with the world and with you
building walls that can hide me
from critical views
till I find some way to give love without needing
an answer in tones that can resonate meaning
into this whole mess that we're held to walk out
because Christ and his church is what it is really about.

foot falls down, foot falls down
and then rinse and repeat
and give thanks that the broken
must die to be reaped.