an anomaly

For all of my life I've been an anomaly. I was the only Christian Homeschooled ballet student at my studio...or maybe in existence, I haven't figured out yet. I've always been one of the only (non-musician) artist in a given church; Christians don't understand good art unfortunately even though it's reflecting God's own beauty and excellence. I'm too liberal for my theology and to religeous for my liberal friends. I can't find a good Christian man who's not bland and luke warm like the church has taught us to be... I can't find a good secualr man who knows the value and beauty of pursuing God with his whole self. My bizarre qualities have ended friendships, relationships, and made countless situations awkward. Now, my life is continuing its patern. I'm pregnant. and single. ugh!
I've always hated the dividing of single and coupled people, but it happens. No one wants to be a third wheel, so of course, couples hang out with couples so that no one is "odd man out". Then there's the singles. We rarely invite the coupled out because we know they'll say no. I mean really, all of them would rather be cuddeling on a couch watching TV or eating an intimate dinner than out hearing good beats and dance and drink and socialize. Most people (especially once they're coupled) see the "going out" scene as a means to an end; meet someone, be happy, leave the scene. I was the one friend who goes out when coupled, often without my other half. I guess it's because I don't use the scene as a way to pick my meat.
Then there's the parent squad. You see it all the time. I felt it when I babysat. People assumed Hadessa and Landon were mine, and they became nicer, softer, and almost treated me with pitty. These moms bind together like a MOPS team with such importance. I just can't see myself there. I understand the comradery of having the same job, like when I meet another dance instructor. But when it comes down to it, there are such differences in styles and situations I can't imagine blending in.
Well, oh well. Here comes anther wedge to sepparate me farther from the world, to make me more unique : ) I hope i survive!