AS I was listening to Pandora.com doing my AM workout routine, perfectly content as sunlight streamed in my appartment window I realized... I'm always content this time of year. I'm usually in a relationship, and always happy. In November it's been my patern of late to have a breakup or if the relationship does survive to the following summer then there's at least severe upheaval.. Jan/Feb brings new romance.. Summer contentment, winter upheaval. This November I'll be having the most painful "upheaval" and "breakup" i've ever experienced; my baby will be divorcing my body and discovering its own. This Spring I'll fall in love with baby more and more as it recognizes faces and voices and places and colors a little more each day. Summer will bring bliss as baby and i will (hopefully) be a bit more mobile.
Maybe baby will end my tumultuous relationship cycles and bring stability. I'm tired of November break-ups.
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