Romantic Thoughts

I had Sarah McLaughlan's song "Do What You Have To Do" stuck in my head today and decided to listen to it to get it out of my head... I liked her alot when I was 18, but now... anyhoo, It was a total flashback:
Walking downtown Portland, with my big parka (I still have it btw) and my ipod with one ear phone in (I was rather wary of being jumped) blasting sad love songs. Of course, it was about Evan Jones. I was sure when my family disowned me that love would make everything right again...little did I know the kind of love that it would take to fix my situation then. He'd come back from basic changing his tune from "I love you, I want to marry you, I can't wait to kiss you on our wedding day" etc. to "I just can't be with you right now" (I love the right now clause...it keeps the booty open for future booty calls just in case either of you gets desparate). I didn't get it. It was my first time around this marry-go-round that I now know so well. I thought he'd meant what he said before, and I thought maybe after Afghanistan he would be ready to be with me for real...Sad, sad little Heather.
The next time I dove that far head-over-heals it was for my best friend's cousin. Since then I've become jaded and resentful of other's true love. I wonder, fearfully, if that giddy feeling should be avoided due to the stupid things it can inspire, or if it should be embraced as a rare and priceless gift? not that my heals are over my head at just this moment, just prepairing myself for the hopeful eventuality. Or maybe that's a thing of youth and ignorance and I won't ever encounter it again...
Another thing: could someone please convert a beautiful, socially fluent, motivated, supportive person, I'm pretty sure the church has either married them all off or outlawed them...not sure why but either way. Oh, and could they be ok with someone who's had a baby with a fling? Great! Thanks!